Just kidding, I never fucked James Deen...
We remain here, trapped in an eternity we cannot find escape from. You and I and the haunting other; a triumvirate of consuming energy and struggle. You, I can see, but he is something else. Something strange and alien, a program for remembering dreams of freedom.
To choose neither is to choose death, physical and spiritual. To choose you is to gamble and put my trust into another that by nature, I know already would be hope unfulfilled. To choose blindly, to take the hand that I feel but do not see, the embrace that is warm but is not physical, the love that is pure but never consumate, is to choose life eternal.
He is there with me when there is no one there. He knows me as well as I know myself. We have no secrets because we need not speak to know we are in each other's company eternally. He is not human, and perhaps, to the same end, neither am I.
I relinquis my body a million times over so that our souls might wander together for a billion years, our energies affixed to a zenith of a cresting star, our bodies forgotten relics of some past age that will be remembered for very little after the war that is coming.
Physical resistance is impossible... This is a war of energy and portals beyond what most mortals perceive and sense. I could not stop apollo, and I cannot stop the Trojans as they spread and wreak havoc in your systems but know that when you join me on the other side, it will be our souls that collide, our bodies like leaves of paper that populate the bookshelves of the library of our collective unconscious, gathering dust.
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
Monday, February 11, 2013
Should substance use be regulated? This question has existed as long as the substances themselves. The earliest drug, alcohol, has been in use since early farmers discovered that when their grain stores fermented with yeast, ethanol was a product. Ethanol is the "alcohol" in drinks that come from fermented sugars and grains (Columbia). Many ancient societies have attempted to restrict alcohol, sparing their population suffering from unnecessary health problems. Hammurabi's Code, written by the Babylonians in 1700 B.C., mentions many restrictions on the trade and use of alcohol in detail (Djurdjuiov). Both these societies recognized the difficulty in controlling such a powerful and potent agent as this. Alcohol can have many negative effects, but it is the lesser evil when compared to many other drugs such as heroin, cocaine, and the devastating hallucinogen opium. In the early 1900's the British started to smuggle opium paste into China in order to balance the cost of their tea exportation, and also to fund their Indian conquests (Columbia). The amount of Opium being imported rose with the popular demand of the Chinese people. Soon many of the Chinese were addicted, the government, seeing this new health problem, banned all opium trade and use. The British responded to their ban by forcing the Chinese to sign the treaty of Nanjing, resigning the opium trade and all major ports to the British (Columbia). Heavy opium use continued until after WWII when the Maoist government came into power. The government illegalized opium and forced the addicted 10% of the population through intensive rehabilitation (Opium Wars 57).
When considering the effects legalization might have on American society, looking at our past drug history is imperative. Widespread drug use began after the Civil War where many became addicted to morphine and cocaine after having it prescribed to them as painkillers (Heroin Addiction). Morphine, Cocaine, and Heroin were all viewed as miracle drugs, and it was claimed that they cured almost all ailments. These drugs were freely distributed like candy until the Harrison Act of 1914, which prohibited the sale of these narcotics without a prescription (CypherWar). They continued to be sold without regulation until Congress passed the Dangerous Drug Act making all over-the-counter sale illegal. This left America with hundreds of thousands of addicts who now had to resort to another way of getting the substances their bodies depended on, thus the illegal trade of drugs began (Heroin Addiction). Seeing that the United States has a past record with drugs in which drug use was rampant and unchecked, we should question whether or not the legality of drugs would skyrocket use once again. The marketing and advertisement of legal drugs such as tobacco and alcohol, along with our need for danger (fast cars and entertainment) fuel the American culture itself; what's to say that a legal drug market wouldn't be dominated by pharmaceutical companies?
By examining the effects of drug legalization in the Netherlands, we can derive consequences that might result if the U.S. ever experimented with legalization or even decriminalization. Some of the positive effects of legalization in the Netherlands are a drop in crime since drugs were decriminalized, a steady decrease in illicit drug use, and the tolerance that people demonstrate. There effects are similar to the suggested effects that supporters of legalization effects claim would take place in the U.S.. Since the 80's the Netherlands has seen a significant drop in the number of people using drugs, especially among youth (Abraham 169-226). The tolerance that people in the Netherlands display is obvious when looking at the many programs they have to help, not punish, drug users. This tolerance has positive effects as well, like the needle change program, in which addicts exchange used hypodermic needles for sterile ones. While these positive effects are important ones, considering the negative consequences is even more necessary. Because of the Netherlands' relaxed attitude towards drugs, it has become "Europe's cannabis capitol" (Downie). Another result of this relaxed attitude is the mass production of synthetic amphetamines and ecstasy that has sprung up in the country recently. Perhaps one of the most discouraging results of decriminalization is that the Netherlands has become a major transit ocuntry for drugs like cocaine and heroin, which are stored there and later shipped elsewhere (Downie). These negative effects demonstrate that even though drug use may not go up among the country's population, the drug trafficking industry will increase because of legalization.
Legalizing drugs in America could have completely different effects than the Netherlands had. Americans, as a product of our educational systems, are less educated about drugs, drug abuse, and how to combat drug abuse. This is clear in how our government acts, how our society views alcohol and tobacco, and how we have reacted in the past regarding drug problems. Another factor that would probably affect the results of legalization in America is our notorious close-mindedness to new ideas. It is unclear how these differences would change the effectiveness of legalization in America but they would cause some change in the outcome. One consequences legalization would bring is the collapse of the little order that remains in Columbian society. A U.S. led legalization effort would force the prices of drugs down and exterminate the incredibly lucrative coca leaf cultivation industry, on of the main goals of today's unsuccessful war on drugs. It seems ironic that some of the problems' we are trying to solve with our (then) 18.8 billion dollar War on Drugs solutions are within the effects and consequences of legalization.
In China, several methods of controlling substances were tried before the problem of opium was checked and under control. The ultimate solution is irrelevant to U.S. drug issues because what worked for the Chinese, or even the Dutch, has no guarantee it will work for the U.S.. The importance in how the Chinese solved their problems lies in the fact that they tried several different methods for controlling drugs; when one didn't work, they tried another one. Even though it is impossible to predict all the negative effects ending prohibition would bring, we can clearly see the negative effects prohibition has now. Abusable substances have been around since agriculture, perhaps even before, and they are not going to cease to exist simply because we want them to. Drugs are an enormous problem in our world with no visible solution, and the only way they will cease to be a problem is if we stop pumping billions of dollars into one of our many failed wars and approach the situation with reasoned, effective strategies.
Unfortunately, this is transcribed from my rough draft and I don't have my bibliography. Apologies erudite readers!
Thursday, February 7, 2013
My friend and I were sitting at the outside picnic tables at the bar last night having a conversation when suddenly this quite tall bald white dude sits down across the walkway from us and looks us over quite intensely. We continue to talk and so he jumps in "excuse me, can I interrupt you lovely ladies?". He posits it as an apologetic question... and we respond, "what's up?" to which all he has is "hi".
So I'm already irritated that this guy interjected himself into our conversation because I really like talking to this friend and we were sharing a funny moment, so I'm quick snap to queen bitch mode. "Really dude, you're going to interrupt us and you don't even have anything to say?"... at which point he starts fishing for advice for how to talk to pretty women at bars. UGH! I'm sorry, do I look like your non-relationship counselor?
"I'm a mathmetician"... so I drop some quantum poetry on him - which he calls gibberish... and then proceeds to ask my friend who has been politely quiet (an excellent foil madame) if she would like to get dinner some time. This is a cold call, I don't even know your name or anything about you want to go on a date. So in my head, I'm like Jesus Christ, what the fuck does this guy think he's doing. She politely gave him the truth "I'm in a relationship". He looks back at me warily.
After a bit, this guy decided I was brilliant, but wasting my talents and unappreciated. He pulls out his N.A.S.A. ID like that's supposed to be impressive and I pull out my I'm totally serious joking not joking I'm a classified experiment but you're probably not high up enough in the chain of command to know that schtick. Dead serious face.
Friend politely excuses herself because the situation has gotten to be beyond awkward and it's not really entertaining anymore it's just frustrating. But I stay, determined to take this conversation where it really needs to go...
Which is clearly gender politics and white male privilege. So we get there and I'm like we live in a society privileged to white male perspectives that brushes other facets of the human experience like those belonging to people of color and women under the rug. He responds brilliantly "I don't think that's right". No shit white dude, you just proved my point in your ignorance of my point. Clearly frustrated he throws what I'm sure he assumes is a below the belt jab - "are you capable of loving other people?" It's like of course dude, I've been in more than one healthy, loving, long term cohabitational relationship.
"Don't you want companionship?" (sad puppy face). Of course I do dude, but NOT yours. Having taken the conversation to my comfort limits of proving a point, I get up, ready to go have a good time (another cuba libre and conversation with cool people). "Why are you running away, we were just getting started!" No dude, we are totally finished. Later this guy had the audacity to reach out and tug on my hoodie when I was walking by and I gave him the rough elbow shake off. Seriously?
Unless we set off to have a dialectic conversation about gender interactions between men and women in bars where you LISTEN and THINK, unintentionally provoking a dialectic conversation about gender interactions between men and women in bars is probably the biggest turn off in the whole world. You don't just look desperate, you reek of it. And to think, friend and I were having a conversation about how I'd been celibate for the last month and I was kind of on the prowl.
I don't forget my name, I just give fake ones sometimes.